Learning to Manage

Okay, I've been a mommy for two months now & I still feel overwhelmed! It's not because I have don't have enough help. For instance, I began this blog on July 25th and I'm just now working on it...August 5th. Unsure how to describe what I am feeling. After my 6 weeks of maternity leave, I came back to work. I was fine until I started back to work. Now, I feel as though my world won't stop spinning. Work has been so overwhelming which doesn't make things easier at all! I can clean my house & by the next day...it's a disaster again. My mountain of laundry neeever seems to fade regardless of how hard I try to keep up. I guess it's just hard to adjust once you have a baby. Maybe some pointers or advice?

Just bare with me, because I seriously need this vent session. While I was on maternity leave, I felt so at ease because I was home all the time with Lexie & able to keep the house/laundry in order. I guess I am starting to feel like a failure. Lexie, of course is taken care of. She is & always will be my first priority, but I feel as though I can't keep up with the rest of my life & make time for me too. To fill you in, my husband is a neat freak, he works evening/night shifts. I'm starting to feel like I am letting him down by not playing the wifely/motherly role of keeping the house up to par. Uhg, I know that sounds silly & it's not a huge deal. I guess I just wish I could be super mom like so many other women I know. How do I get there? When do I get there? I figured after 2 1/2 months, I would be able to develop some type of routine.

I am not a person who likes to be out of control of my element. I am OCD but I do like to have somewhat of a plan & routine to my days. Lexie is a wonderful baby, she isn't high maintenance. The only time that little girl fusses is when her belly hurts or she's hungry. She sleeps all night, allowing me to sleep the night through but with everything I need to do, I usually don't get in bed til 12 or 1 and have to be up at 6:30am. So yeah, not much rest coming out of that. Maybe it isn't something I can master. Maybe I won't be able to get everything under control. Maybe I will just have to learn to adapt to a new way of life...a beautiful mess. Hahaha!

As I said, any advice is greatly appreciated!