Learning to Manage

Okay, I've been a mommy for two months now & I still feel overwhelmed! It's not because I have don't have enough help. For instance, I began this blog on July 25th and I'm just now working on it...August 5th. Unsure how to describe what I am feeling. After my 6 weeks of maternity leave, I came back to work. I was fine until I started back to work. Now, I feel as though my world won't stop spinning. Work has been so overwhelming which doesn't make things easier at all! I can clean my house & by the next day...it's a disaster again. My mountain of laundry neeever seems to fade regardless of how hard I try to keep up. I guess it's just hard to adjust once you have a baby. Maybe some pointers or advice?

Just bare with me, because I seriously need this vent session. While I was on maternity leave, I felt so at ease because I was home all the time with Lexie & able to keep the house/laundry in order. I guess I am starting to feel like a failure. Lexie, of course is taken care of. She is & always will be my first priority, but I feel as though I can't keep up with the rest of my life & make time for me too. To fill you in, my husband is a neat freak, he works evening/night shifts. I'm starting to feel like I am letting him down by not playing the wifely/motherly role of keeping the house up to par. Uhg, I know that sounds silly & it's not a huge deal. I guess I just wish I could be super mom like so many other women I know. How do I get there? When do I get there? I figured after 2 1/2 months, I would be able to develop some type of routine.

I am not a person who likes to be out of control of my element. I am OCD but I do like to have somewhat of a plan & routine to my days. Lexie is a wonderful baby, she isn't high maintenance. The only time that little girl fusses is when her belly hurts or she's hungry. She sleeps all night, allowing me to sleep the night through but with everything I need to do, I usually don't get in bed til 12 or 1 and have to be up at 6:30am. So yeah, not much rest coming out of that. Maybe it isn't something I can master. Maybe I won't be able to get everything under control. Maybe I will just have to learn to adapt to a new way of life...a beautiful mess. Hahaha!

As I said, any advice is greatly appreciated!

Say NO To Solicitors!

Yes, I'm complaining already & I haven't had this blog but a meer 24 hours. I am thinking of posting a NO SOLICITING sign on my front door! Not even 15 minutes upon arriving home from a long day at work, I get a knock at the door. As I open it, I do not recognize the face that stands before me so I immediately think to myself (Greaaat, someone is selling something...). She hands me a bottle of Dawn dish detergent & says "I'm with such n such company and we are just out in the neighborhood today to hand out free gifts & introduce ourselves". I say thank you as she proceeds to explain that her company is offering one room of floor cleaning for free with no obligation. I explain to her that I rent the home (with hardwood floors) and I don't think it would be best incase the floor were to get scratched. She ofcourse, practically begs to do our living room floor. At this point, my temper is beginning to spike. I tell her once more "I'm sorry, but no thank you". That's when she starts the typical lines of BS that I am honestly not buying for a second. She says "We just need one more floor so that we can end our day", "The boy in the van only makes a small amount to come out & do this", "Could we come back a different day after you speak with your land lord?". OMG, I understand that everyone has a job & I am definetly not knocking a working person but are you serious!? When someone says no, that usually does really mean no. To top it all off, at the end of our 15 minute floor cleaning debate she proceeds to kindly TAKE BACK the bottle of dish detergent & politely says "Do you mind if I give this to another nice neighbor?"! Shocked, so I didn't say my thought at the time. I handed this dish soap back & told her to have a good day. As I sat in the house & stewed for a few afterwards. My aggrivation turned into madness! Not that I cared one bit about a bottle of dish detergent but come on now, as a company trying to introduce themselves to the community...I don't think it is very proper to pass out a free gift & retrieve it when I deny the services being offered to me! How rude! Not only that, I did not ask them to come knock on my door! Looking back, I sooo wish I would have said, Nope I think I'll keep this lovely free gift from your wonderful company & slammed the door! Maybe it was just the icing on the cake from the "wonderful" day that I was already having but that just jerked my chain! Okay, I'm done venting for now. I promise that not every post I do will be a gripe session but sometimes a woman needs to let it out!

A Quick Look Back...

I'm new at this, please bare with me =)

I just wanted to give a quick recap of my life that has developed into my little family over the last two years. I began dating my now husband (Christopher) in December of 2008. We were engaged in April of 2009 and we married in June of 2009. Our little bundle of joy, Alexis Danielle was born on May 26th, 2010. She is now almost 2 months old, time is flying by already! Reality has hit me like a ton of bricks recently. I'm a mommy & a wife, something I've always dreamed of but never knew I'd have! On that note, the rollercoaster of life begins!